This is an excerpt from the book I’m working on: I become lost in the clamor of everyone else’s needs, desires, fears, and longings. As someone who desperately wants others to find their truth, this becomes dangerous. I’ve felt unsafe for most of my life. Even within the context of my most intimate relationships, I have had to protect myself from being consumed.
Being capable, driven, and magnetic has its downsides. This is why I choose solitude and often prefer the clean lines of business relationships over personal ones. I am safer under the heading of goals and deliverables, rather than the ambiguity of personal longings and desires. When I allow someone else’s personal agenda to invade my space, it strips me of my freedom and drowns out my true voice.
I am ready for a new story. It is my goal to choose a partner with whom I do not need to protect myself. It is my goal to become someone who prioritizes hearing my own voice.
It is a journey.
Quinn Steele 